Friday Night

Oh my

Heck yes

The plane boss, the plane

Monday is Skydiving day.

It'll soon be time to get geared up and strapped in for a wild and crazy ride.

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Neglect

I've been neglecting this blog. I've been neglecting my big boy blog too. I've got great excuses, and rationalizations for days. I could go on and on about woes and worries, or about triumphs and distractions. I keep looking for ways to fit more hours in the day, cram more into each minute... Somehow cope with this nagging reserve of exhaustion that won't go away.

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24 Hour Play Festival

Planet Ku baby, oh yeah

And Here We Go!

The summer has started... And in a wave of crazy. Every summer I forget what it is to run at a break neck pace for six weeks hardly breathing all while keeping the smile going non-stop. I can't say that it gets harder, just that with each additional year that I do this I am more amd more aware of how taxing it is. And taxing it is in spades.

Crap... Short schedules today, nearly time for the next class - so much for a chance to sit down.

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So checked out

Angry and grumpy are what I am right now... Angry and grumpy embodied. I'm so done. So frustrated. So tired of making things work.

I'm just letting myself sit in a bad mood right now. I've gotta break out of this, gotta find some positives... Gotta turn this frown upside down.

Maybe I should start by actually getting a night of sleep that was more than 4 hours long.

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Flowers

I bought a girl flowers... Sometimes you just gotta buy a girl some flowers.

It's been a full day. Working from home this morning and afternoon, organization work for something next weekend, reading, and now a drive to northern Vermont for a show.

This week has been so full of discoveries and realizations, so overflowing with new acceptance for who I am... Readings of old journals, and unwindings of complex knots.

Last nights light bulb moment: I am self critical to a fault, and have spent too much time cursing myself rather than celebrating being alive.

It's driving time soon

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Oh dear

This is so so rough

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Home

This is the California I remember from my childhood... The rolling hills and endless sky. Beautiful.

I hate to break it to you

Dear Crazies,

I know it may be a rough pill to swallow, but the world does not revolve around you. In fact, sometimes I don't even think about you... Actually, sometimes I've gone out of my way to distance myself from you. Maybe I'm being too subtle. Maybe you don't take a hint. Maybe the fact that we fundamentally disagree on the things I hold close to my heart hasn't occured to you. I know what you want, and I'm not willing to give it anymore. I'm sorry, but my time is valuable and you just aren't a return investment. At least not for me. It doesn't mean that I hate you, it doesn't mean that your a bad person, it doesn't entitle you to be bitchy and send angry text messages, in fact all it really means is that I moved on with my life. I'm sorry, but you should do the same. I know that your hurt and struggling, but it's not for me to fix you. Let the past be the past, forge ahead, really it's okay.

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